Saturday, November 06, 2010

one week

Wow. It has been one week. Seems so much has happened in one week.

I am feeling a bit down today. The holidays are coming before I know it, before any of us even realize, and I am wondering how I am going to do it this year. My last duck isn't in line...and sometimes I get so mad at myself. I should have kept track of how many jobs I have applied for. I am now an official sub for one district but have been called only once. My son was sick this week at school..had to go and get him on Tuesday. We were able to attend the field trip into the city on Wed but got another call on Thurs from school...only this time, he was injured. Turns out he broke a bone in his foot. We go to the specialist on Monday. I am trying to keep my head above water but sometimes I just really feel like I am bobbing to stay alive.

I worked on some literature for the business my sister and I are trying to start. Deep down, I want it to take off so we have flexibility with schedules during the day and we both end up what we love doing...working with and for kids. When I subbed and was back in the classroom, it was as though I never left. It just felt right.

As long as I feel as though I am serving others, I am satisfied.

The only problem is that a monetary compensation is necessary at this stage in my life. I cannot make it with the intrinsic satisfaction of volunteering or subbing sporadically.

sigh. Will I ever make it?


iteach7 said...

You will make it!! Keep happy thoughts.

that girl said...

I am trying..thanks for checking in on me frequently...and for ALWAYS listening when I call. it means so much.