Farthest from

Lately I've been feeling like it doesn't matter. Lessons, teachable moments, .....they don't matter. "Seems like you're waiting to pick a fight, " he said. I guess I need to let go more? To me, though,  I feel as if I don't engage or speak up or attempt to offer an alternative, well, then am I following through on my commitment as a parent? I've said many times that I will stop asking questions about my step kids because then no one can get irritated or mad or NOTHING. But my heart tells me if I don't ask or don't engage then that means I don't care.  And not caring is the farthest from the truth.