Friday, October 08, 2010


dear internet,
I have been thinking about you lately. I haven't heard from you in a while. I imagine you have lots on your mind...

the leaves are falling and the air is brisk. I love the sound of leaves crunching beneath my feet. the smell of dried leaves, of pumpkins and squash.

as I sit here alone with my thoughts, many things come to mind. but today, I promise to myself to clear my head and enjoy the day. I will be out with my Mom, sister and niece. a last minute gathering of girls.

I am off to relish in this day.

that girl

ps. don't forget, it's OK to talk to me about anything.


Anonymous said...

Dear That Girl,
You are has been a while. And yes, there has been a lot on my mind. Things that make me step back and say, "why?". Why put the fear of something into someones head when they cannot determine between fact or fiction. Is this really a healthy way to go through life? Does that really make that person feel like they are going to accomplish anything by doing that? As you well know, there are not too many things that get me upset or anger me. But, after a while, and to see the reaction from someone first hand, it gets upsetting. I know I cannot change the way some people are. I can only move forward and be there for the ones I truly care about. And what was 2 has now become 5. I just hope that I can look back on this someday and know that I did the best I did and gave it my all. And those 5 that I am referring to can be happy together with me. Anybody can take a pumpkin and cut a few triangles and say they carved a pumpkin. But it takes someone with great patience to carve one with moving parts and smoke. The same can be said about a parent. Anybody can make a baby, but it takes patience and determination to raise that baby into someone you can be proud of. And thats what I am hoping for. For them to be proud of me.
I am glad you are enjoying to changing colors of the leaves and the falling of them from the trees. Enjoy these days. For one day, I will be the one walking along listening to the crunching leaves with you. And maybe we will have 4 others with us and all be laughing and goofing around. Lets just make sure that we have hats for people...I would hate to have anybodys ears get cold.
Until we chat again, take care and keep positive. Every day that gets put behind us just moves us one day closer to...happiness.

Love you,

The Internet.

p.s. I know it might be chilly tonight, but I don't need my setting at 10.

that girl said...

it makes me sad to know your frustration. I wish there was a magic wand I could wave so that you feel better about all of this. OR I wish I could punch someone in the face for you. =)